Things I wanna Buy with the Money from Quitting Smoking

A pack of cigarettes costs $32 dollars currently. I often buy 2-3 packs a week. This is alot of money that could be going on food and savings.

 rtx 4070 ti nvidia video card. $1700

Thats definitely up there on my list of things i want first.

Also a power supply for computer so can run video card    $150

Electric guitar and amplifier   $500

Bluetooth Stereo that doubles for an amplifier for my guitar.         gunna say $300-500

Portable bluetooth speaker       $100

New cell phone            $300

Android Tablet                        $400

Pay of debt at baycorp so can obtain credit again.  Not sure how much say $1000

Buy a battery and 16gb ram for my laptop which is absolute luxury for how much i use it but $75 for battery and $120 for ram say $200.

Buy another 16gb ram for my desktop pc to take it to 32gb $120

Quitting smoking would enable me to up my grocery budget each week so am spending more on food and not starving and actually having takeaways and nice foods from the supermarket. This change in diet would provide broad health and energy benefits on top of the benefits of quitting smoking. Put simply at the moment I don't get enough food.

Um what else.

A wifi bluetooth dongle so I can hook up my new stereo  $30

If i think of more stuff ill add it. The total comes to      $5000 exactly. But i know there is stuff I have forgotten.

So there we have it.  $5000 is about 2 years savings at $50 dollars a week. Incredibly doable if I just quit smoking. NOW whats stopping me from quitting smoking?

Assassin's Tale.

Assassin's Tale Movie 2013

Watched this a little over a week ago. It's ok. Got a bit of violence.

I liked the ending. From what I could gather I didn't really click till the end. So it kept me guessing. Still a bit of a B grade movie though. Don't really recommend it.

Only if super bored and got nothing else to watch.

But everyone has there own opinion.

Leeda

Scooter Accident.

I had an accident on my 50cc Scooter about 2 weeks ago on Wednesday the 16th of September 2015 at about 5pm. I'm ok. Just hurt my big toe. But it's ok now. My scooter front wheel and guard were damaged in the accident and possibly the front forks.

So far all seems to be going well with the people seeking parts to replace what was damaged.; It wasn't my fault. I was coming upto a giveway sign and a big toyota hilux came round on wrong side of road cutting the center line and caught and run over my front wheel. I was going pretty slowly so I just was able to jump off. I was like 1 metre from the giveway sign.

I remember thinking when I pick up my broken bike to check where it had fallen to see if I had crossed center line or something. It had fallen away from me and even the handle bars were inside the center line. The Hilux was well wrong and at fault.

It was very violent. It could of been much worse. I could've been killed.

I really need a car now to be safe. But i'm poor.

It's put me right off scooters.

It wasn't my fault I was hit unawares from out of no where before I even new what was happening. I even did the exact opposite thoughts thing that I should of in such an emergency. It was over so quicky but my thoughts and reaction were all wrong and I should've been jumping out of the way or something. I reacted poorly. I won't make it if I have to rely on my reactions vs thinking on what to do to save me or someone else in a life threatening emergency.

I don't think there is anything that can speed me up and make me more "onto it" as they say.

Here are some photos:

Hopefully soon enough i'll be rich and able to afford a car. Rich to me is like $450k.

I am expecting some money for my September 11th World Trade Center Phone call. Can only be patient and wait. A car would be safer. Really need to upgrade to a car for safety now. The scooter accident was violent. But i'm safe. But it really put me off riding a scooter now. If the scooter ever gets fixed and I have to ride it again i'm going to be ever so careful and dreaming of a car the whole way.

Buy me a car if your wealthy.

Immortality.

Ray Kurzweil

Here's an article from Ray Kurzweil director of engineering at Google and futurist about how nanobots will be the key to immortality which could be achieved in as little as 25 years.

I believe immortality is right here right now pretty much. I have experienced the matrix. This will be a huge part in the reality of immortality. They must understand the human body heaps by now.

I guess if God was real he would have intervened in WW1 and 2. The hour for God is getting late.

I have kinda messed up my life by hating on America. It should be covered under freedom but no it's not.

I'm hoping God is my ally and that he has a plan. I love my God. I love my bible and scripture. But i'm not sure if it's real in the absolute face of technology and hatred that exist.

God is perhaps a losing battle unless God himself acts.

Check the article out. I mention myself the matrix as existing in full form right now so immortality can't be to far away. I read they learnt how to lengthen telomeres which is why people age or something they get shorter and shorter with aging.

Time magazine had a picture of a toddler on its cover and stated the baby would live till 142. Wow.

I'm predicting immortality myself.

Darcy Lee

Scripture For The Day.

John 6:29 Jesus answered, "The work of God is this: to believe in the one he has sent."

So I think this is basically saying that the work of God is to believe in Jesus. Reads impossible to some extent. I mean there is a complete lack of evidence about Jesus. There is the bible and that's it. I find it incredibly hard to believe in Jesus.

In the words of Guns and Roses Sweet Child o Mine my opinion about Jesus..... "Where Do We Go Now."

That is to say Jesus is kind of an everlasting circle. There is no end to Jesus. The arguments to and forth on all sides never end.

Myself for one thing I could say that because I have suffered so much and ever so greatly that Jesus is fake. But the bible talks about sharing in Christs suffering. But that's stupid. There needs to be an end to suffering once and for all. A decisive strike.

So having suffered I fall away from Jesus with the opinion that he c
an't really help much. The medicine of earth is horrible and also along with the medicine of religion which works even less.

I have fallen into a horrible trap. O what a tortured soul I am. Who will save me. Perhaps the truth will set me free. It is good to be alive. I am much freer than I was in my Twenties. I no longer suffer the pain that I once endured. It's gone. I don't even have a memory of it. But now i'm tortured by the GOVTS again. With their mind reading tech.

I'm told i'm in a zoo of sorts. Also i'm told i'm a dog in terms of intelligence. I could believe both. So then what can I possibly hope to achieve.

Believing there will be power that does mighty good even if I die I press on. I just have to wait. I will start a fire on this earth at the very least.

I am already fading though. I once was and am yet to come. I have to believe that good will come. To satisfy any longings I had as a kid I have to accomplish good and alot. Evil wars with me.

Really why do we live. Is it just to suffer. There are some hard questions. I can't answer them. If the bible has done anything for me it has provided me with a puzzle. I hope the bible can do good. It is themed around such things. But yet it is so easily twisted. But it hasn't answered any of my questions the bible. The bible has only created problems for me.

I experience the bible to be cool. But it is a puzzle. Perhaps without a time travel machine we will never know. Perhaps an observation is required. I really don't know any keys to unlocking the mysteries of life. I am a passenger hoping to be taught by someone much smarter than me.

What are we able to teach our selves. Do we stagnate? I guess we grow backwards after reaching our peak. It's all down hill from here so they say.

I can't add much to the world with just my words. I'll leave it here.

Hey Joe Jimi Hendrix.

Jimi Hendrix - Hey Joe.

It's pretty late here.  It's like 15 minutes past 3amm in the morning as I write this first sentence.  I came to this version of Hey Joe by Jime Hendrix Live by thinking on the word Angel which can also be pronounced  as Age Ole or also I was saying it as Hey Joe.  So Angel = Age Ole = Hey Joe.  I didn't like HEY JOE when I first looked it up again a little while ago.  Perhaps when I was listening to A11 Along The Watch Tower.  But I remember liking hey Joe as a teenager.  I'm including hey Joe because i've given it a few plays now and also this paragraph has clues as to why i'm adding it.

What have I been doing?  Well playing more WOW.  I'm levelling a shaman to 60 and it's going to be my boost toon.  I was going to boost a 60 priest that I specially levelled but i'll probably just hand level him unless I become rich and suddenly get heaps of money enough to COUGH COUGH buy a level 90 or two. It sucks how you can buy level 90's now.  It makes it a rich mans game.  Guess it means if you pay $65 for each level 90 that my account is worth somewhere round $260 dollars for say the cost of four 90s that I have.  But this $260 dollars is nothing in comparison to the actual amount of hours I have invested in some of my characters.  It works out at about one dollar per 24 hours played sitting in chair.

I'm a terrible World of Warcraft Player.  I have no smarts.  Anywho.

Battlesheep was a domain I checked out but it's gone to some Portugal gaming company.  I check out domain names regularly and write down good ones I think are will be ok.  Most are stupid but who knows maybe one day i'll think of a good one.

I actually stumped Google a little while ago.  I searched for the word Militourance.  Google had absolutely no results what so ever for this word.  It's a word I invented myself and if it ain't in Google then it probably hasn't been thought of yet.  What do you think it means, what's the definition of the word?  It's quite hard to stump Google.  Also the word Miltourance stumps google.

I actually have hurt my back.  About three days ago I felt something kind twinge or snap or move in my lower back and it's been hurting ever since.  The first night was the worst I couldn't even move hardly it was very painful to move anyway.

Leave you with this.  According to the bible oneday there will be no pain no tears no mourning or the last enemy, no DEATH.  This means that we are still primitive and we must therefore think and take action perhaps fight hard to arrive at a place such as this.

With thought and truth it can be done much faster than we think possible perhaps.

I want to see a place like this where everyone is safe.  It would be nice to know GOD if he was real.  Like to prove that GOD was real or not would solve heaps of problems.  It would answer alot of questions for so many people.  Many many people follow religion and GOD and intertwine it with there very nature and being.  But this seems to much of a challenge to solve the answer of IS THERE A GOD?

Ok i'm going to bed now.




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Believe, Belief.

Hello. It's been nearly seven months since I have had a cigarette. My life still sucks though. At the moment my house, the run down squaler place that I live in, is infested with mice. I've mice trapped six of the suckers so far, but they are still running around. I don't know what to do.

They are really hard to trap with what I have as the traps aren't sensitive enough and the mice just eat the bait with out setting off the trap. But still i've managed to trap 6 mice. This is really gross. Ewwwww.

The other day upon arriving home I saw a Rat, not a mouse but a rat.

So with these things in mind and the obvious poor quality of this website you should consider donating, giving to me, to lift me out of the terrabad conditions that I live in.

I'm working here to make money. In the 5 and half years I have been living in this house I haven't made more than $40 NZ dollars bucks online. So I pretty much fail. My pet rock shop gets heaps more hits than this webpage and contains a fraction of the content.

I am by ways of posting on this site working. But it just doesnt pay off. There have been some successful websites with creators behind them posting useful and helpful material, but the people behind them are smarter and healthier and more motivated than me.

I could've been rich by now. But the powers won't allow it. I feel pretty tortured and ripped off just to say. Especially tortured. Especially ripped off. Tormented. Broken. Betrayed. Used. Never Ending. By real live people.

There is no where to go.

No one believes.